Plainly Patterned Pretending

Send fire into your heart

Spark your soul

Can you look at yourself

When you take off the mask

Do you care

Do you feel alone

Are you searching for something

Something that remains unknown

We all have our transgressions

We all have secrets

We all have that in common

Behaving one way in front of certain people

Then, another way in front of others

No, I'm real

No one has to ask me

Who are you now

It has cost me friends and family

It's taught me

I never gave one single fuck

When sometimes I should have

When sometimes I shouldn't have and still did

I've always been me

I stand on who I am

Realer, Trill, Savage as fuck, Big bitch, Teddy Bear, Rose with thorns

It's cost me

I'm not trippin

It's worth it

Teaching my boys to be fully themselves without compromise

I ain't raised no punks

Strong, Beasts, Genuine Geniuses

It's the greatest gift

They know that I accept them completely

Soldiers

Shit pops off

They will not crumble or fold

Parents always say they got the best kids

My boys are good at being bad

But they ain't no criminals

They ain't assholes

Strong morals

I know if they saw something going on that was wrong they'd not stand by

Everything I say I do

I do

I am upside-down right now

I'm not out of the game

I'm in survival mode

I'm not asking anyone to lift me out of the grave I dug

I will pay

I am paying considerably

I have paid

The pain caused by my action or inaction

Hurt them the most

I dont pretend that it hasn't been painful for me

I've second guessed every moment of my life

It won't be the first or last time

I've been searching for home, stability and safety

My whole life

I searched for love in the wrong places

I wandered this place

Praying for freedom

Only having one option

Real shit

Never been a fuckin fraud

Been toes down since I could walk

Sneak diss

Hold your tongue

Speak that shit in person

You won't

I don't trust

I don't fear

I will give love

Love is always greater

Spare me your sympathy 

I will not break

If you can't measure up

Just walk out the door

Who are you now

Eyes open

When all fades

When everyone turns against you

Will you stand up for integrity

Will you admit the darkness we all own

I'm still breathing

I'm moving forward

I'm good enough

I'm the sinner

I'm also good

This isn't the end

Just a new story

From the ground to glory

Getting it out of the swamp

Getting it out the mud

In blood

They can walk away

Everyone can walk away

I would rather be myself

Then create a person that makes people more comfortable

I've always been strangely intimidating

I've always let people in easily 

Trusted upfront and quickly

Forgetting that people prefer their mask

No Covid

Walk away

My mistakes do not make me

They free me

Allowing me to grow

Rose from the concrete

With thorns

I've made up my mind

I'm burning like fire

Sparks inside

Combustion

I will only change what I know hasn't given me greatness

The spark gives me life

It breathes life into me

I'm not losing myself

I'm fighting for myself

You cannot leave responsibility of your life in the hands of others

I'm smarter now

I'm not sorry

Settle the score

I know who I am

I'm not giving in

I'm growing within

#GrowthFruit