A Soul Sold: Liliths Truths Told
Days toll on
Nights sullen
Never on my own
Alone all of the time
Should have changed
Importance placed the blame on my name
Faces that surround me
Require the most from me
I see them surround me
I cant hear them
The storm is getting too loud
I feel nothing
Disappointments fueled by animosity
Such a sunny summer day or I think it used to be
My storm is in the way
Stop incoming tragedy
I look up into the faces of my children
I should have been easier on you
Shoulda been easier on me
Middle finger to my 40th birthday
Storm rages
Penning pages
Time passed so quickly
Diamonds fall from mouths speaking to me
Nevermind, I'm sorry those are only atrocities
It was change
I've wanted change so badly
That I fell apart
On the ground picking up my shattered disaster
Adjusted responses
Tweaked my inner Demons
Turned um into Monsters
Bent them
Forcing them around pain
It's suffocating in here
Storming inside me
Beating me
Annihilating my sensitivity
Beatiful misery
Beating the fuck outta me
Submission
I gave no permission
Rupture
Tough until tender
Hard but so gentle
Momentum increasing
Time decreasing
Can you hear me screaming
I am less than ever forever
Can you feel the energy
Flooding now, it's crazy
The sky is falling down
I am tired
Drained.... draining
Look up, its still raining
Buried underneath the weight of the world
Weight of my family
Buried deep inside of me
In these hands lay horrific plans
In a storm
Castle crumbling
Inflicting pressure pushing at the seams
Pressure grew problems
Color washed outta me
I cannot see
Blindfolded and bloody
Tears crashing around me
Burning Beauty
Contemplating death
Praying to a God
I abandoned
Could someone step in
Care for them better than I am
Storm consuming any peace or happy inside me
Desiring death more than I ever wanted a lover
Freedom, pleasure, desire any fire
Disappeared as the flood became higher
I watched, still attempting to find safety
Replacement me
Painted a pretty smiling face
Jokes on me
Faking happy
Things would never be the same
Everything changed
Pretending
Grave digging
Life ran over me
Spit on me
Never cared enough about she
We
Me
Sitting under flood waters
Glad I had sons not daughters
Still we have no fathers
Will to survive blew away
Somewhere on a Florida highway
Let me just fade away
Failed them
Looking for myself, safety, stability
Drowning in indiscretions
Lightening then thunder
Dreams then wonder
Turning blue
Lay my head down tonight
Praying to see the light
Am I alright
Water is all I know
Ebb in this Life
On my side
Not time, can't wind down
Do the stars still shine
Moon was a best friend of mine
Gigantic monster inside of me
So very hungry
Don't look in the mirror
Don't say anything good to her
We
Me
They surround me, they can't see me
Pain took a back seat
Pain is pissed at me
Pain commotion
Next to pain sits anger
Angers holding a gun
To my head
Safety is not on
They're trying to use the driver all for fun
Shell of who I was and the person I have become
We're in the front seats
Fighting over the wheel
Hurting just to feel
Suffocating possibility
Choking positivity
Screaming, fuck me
Hurt me
It's nothing I'm fine
Don't you see me smiling
Mind tumbling
Underneath a melodramatic doom
Telling me my end is soon
Better hold on voraciously
Have you had enough baby
My spirit sees
Body seethes
I never loved she
We
Me
My soul sits in silence
Watching them all fight, violent
Emotions running the gauntlets
Tortured soul
Lava surrounded island
Blood on boil
What does winning look like
Is it materialistic
Is it sloth
Lust? Pride? Wrath? Envious debauchery?
Don't tempt me
Consuming?
Mind sinking not swimming
Everyone keeps watching me
Screaming at me
Bitch where's the answers
You better find them quickly
Wheres the money, they all need more
Shoving it in replacement mes face
Shutting down, out the door
I just cannot remember
Blacked out a few days before
The car was driving too fast when we crashed
I dont remember much about that
Was the light green
Go the distance
I always loved to speed
What's the course
The path, it's not paved in gold
No witch, red stilettos, nice hard switch or crescendo
No magical destination
Feels like home but still vacation
I am older
Path growing colder
Tied the boulders to my feet
Defeat and delete
Nothing is the same
What has it been
Dreams and memories
Keep trying to squeeze in between me and me
Damnations heated front seat
Endless spinning records on repeat
Road or path
Neither last
Paved in broken glass
I don't know how to behave
Anyone care
About the way I feel today
I'm not asking
I don't even care
I don't give a fuck
Embraced the crash
Love the rush
Car is full of water
Drowning
My fathers daughter
No rose all thorns
Driving as fast as I can
My foots on the gas
Passenger me holds the wheel
Thunder rumbled
I can't feel anything
Haven't in years
Melody kissed tears
Gathered throughout the years
Is it too late
Fighting for survival
Denying all things carnal
Stupid girl
Perspective jaded
Neglected and abandoned
Pushed me down in the burial seat
Dead as dead can be
Enemy Me laughs wildly
She's pretty sexy
Petty
Pain giggles too
Hate touches me inappropriately
Angers steadily ready
Pull the trigger
Passenger me still has the wheel
Stupid girl, this you driving you
You don't believe in things you can't see
Even when everything says it's true
You're giving up possibilities
Sky is full of darkness
Darkness is inside of me
Am I still real
I can't see anyone in the car but me
Fuck it
Crashed the car
Keep it lit
Couldn't run
Final say
Grabbed my gun
Watched them
The bottom fell
The sky collapsed too
I waited
Closed my eyes
Opened big surprise
Everything went up in flames
Anger dropped the gun
Bullets ripped through pain
Rage wouldn't stop reaching for me
Such a tragedy
Leading the path to self discovery
Black hole sun
Watching me
Coming undone
Spirit didn't drowned
Tears spilled from star filled eyes
Soul still sat waiting peacefully
Engine's whines
Car Explodes
Momentous blow
Time bends suddenly
The fall instantly halted
Magic ensued
Sight seen
Starting ascension
Highlighting the journey, no vacation
Voice inside me still begging for burning
At the stake
Feasting upon fruits made from my charred body
Necromancy
Shoving emotion in my belly
Lies caused me to go blind
Lost sight of sunny skies
Let me lose sight of whys
Humanity release me
I cannot take this place
Faces surrounded me
Those faces don't see
This world confuses me
I'm missing a moment
Cut away shame in shapes of boulders
Tied to my feet
Drowning me
Just medicate me
Face down in apathy
Disconnected deathly desires
Headed out of this world
Comatose amongst constellations
I Fucked redemption
I mean him
Spit in the face of the sun
Or did he spit on me
What battle
I thought I won
Dancing further into the eternal ether
Fading myself into oblivions theater
Blending monsters creating demons
Bleeding, panic, crushing
Rushing to the car
How do I get home
God says I should of known
Blown away by the debut
Startled with dismay
I fell back, knocked off the path
My self discovery
Ripped and turned inside out
Plunging into purgatory
Is this losing
Slammed hard
Pavement
Depraved sentiment
I was driving, wasn't
All these faces looked down at me
Smiling "I'm fine you see."
Inside the storm had passed
Dead at last
Better than what I was
What I've become
No body, no one
Know body, know one
Stumbled to my feet
Spraying blood
Quench your thirst
Red simmering
Shimmering summer sadness
Life was left back there somewhere
Walking on broken glass
My pretty ass
Should have worn shoes
Will this road lead to more blue
Out of time
Can't rewind
Can't go slow
Going solo
Fuck that car
Fuck everyone whose making my choices
Fucked me, myself and some dude who was in it
Was he jaw jacking
What's him name again
Pretty mouth stop talking
Show me what that mouth do
Sucker for a guy who has a sweet tooth, no candy
I guess I'll continue walking
Walking to my wake
I pray the lord my soul to take.
Necrotic Fruit
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