Cross my heart but hope to fly

Orbiting devastation. My hushed prowess became bridged into intimate obsession with damnation.

You'll miss me when I've gone

Promising in tears you'll drown

My Nemesis prolific creation

An esoteric divinity designed my comeuppance 

Retributions such a natural beauty while burgeoning visceral calamity 

Cool calm calculations passed away from me alongside shooting stars inside my burning scars 

Running as I always do 

Away quickly from my closest enemy

Me. 

Self Metamorphosis barreling brilliantly into unknown constellations 

Selfish saboteur entering an atmosphere so unclear 

Immature emotions, misguided misgivings

Silenced by all transgressions

Transgressions breed a transportation into another space and time

When apologies are the sharp edges of an altered version of a earth reality once known

Self destructing edges have been bleeding since the beginning of the beginning 

Suffering with a disease called the Nothing

Suddenly a creature came bursting from a pyres fire

A conscious being whose been widowed an set herself ablaze

Sati

Bonfires flame birthed a sight seen twice before 

Arising the creature destined to continually repeat this possible immortality 

Burning ashes, rising flame, fight to take flight, flying above everything only to crash and burn again 

Phenomenal Phoenix flying conflagration

My soul fight with this shattered macrocosm 

This current immortality and realities are uncontrollable but the response is the testimony

Pretty star fires 

Bewildering desire for wild fires consuming constellations 

Heavenly body cleansing a history filled with desecrations disease 

Time consuming cleansing of she

Rising to a pure place

Brilliantly igniting oracle awakening 

Observation reassembled within and translated to once again begin

Shaping, painting and framing a willow tree is drenched in luminosity 

A perfect private place

Alternate reality

Where I can become a better version

Can you see? Deep within me? Do you seek fantastical faithful loyalty? You're looking at me for the answers little baby?

To whom much is given much is required

No fans, no photos, no fame

Blame, shame, pain

Floating in oblivious abeyance

Here time is never-ending and all beginnings haven't found endings 

A story in it's own ecumenical glory

Screaming inside a war of inherent exclusivity 

Pretending while insinuating a fall from grace is grace full filled

Emotional intelligence paired with emotional maturity

My computer mind playing tricks high key

Always trying to get away from me

The knife, fork and spoon ran off but left heaps of painful pressure

Jumping over the moon far too soon

Leaving leftovers that are constantly all consuming 

Choking then swallowing 

Upon a transcendental celestial empyreal savagely encompassing me by any means necessary in it's tapestry 

A plate joined perfectly with a loaded gun

No safety

Lending to my leaving

A holy terrain traversed

Crossing over bridges completely as I burn them down with only my feet touching the ground 

My soles or soul, made to mimic the lies and deceit 

A secret so hard to keep

The sharp edges of this strange world overflow with the heaviest parts of me 

It lends last breaths to those witnessing that there's nowhere left to see

Made me seep black blood from the massive treck I must complete

This strange world's innermost sanctity is filled with razors and scarcity built by me for me

No sunshine

State of mind

No fun, No funds, No one

Whole world halted, stunted by a griffins eclipse

 

Suns hemorrhaging conflagrant concoction boiling in my cauldron 

All has changed. 

Then chosen as given to me

Chosen to be emboldened by the creator of all 

A fall from glory, it's only a part of the stars story 

Becoming majestically more than eternal infinity 

Creating the brightest part of starfires story 

It's the sweetest fruit of the season 

Sage, oracle, divine being

An esoteric whimsical cataclysm 

Extremely surreptitious affairs afflictions scars

Emit your solar flairs 

While I touch the sun it gives its light to me bring me knowing and mercy

Navigation of my inner solar system

Structral systems that are forced not chosen provide perceptions profanity that try to degrade me

The stars start dripping from my galaxy garden eyes

Fearing failing while falling  

Obligations orbit of oblivion

Black hole of a heart snares all space, time, constellations and it's solar system of love and its truest missions gravity 

Surrendering to the echoes etched inside of pretty scars built from sadness

Dealt a severe blow causing illusions of brilliant streaks of light before the eyes

Upside-down gallery of my galaxies created by me

Or before and no more 

A pretend world constructed by white lies  

Not godless 

Not godly

Holy Trinity Divinity

Next move

Russian Roulette is nothing unusual 

It's the only thing I'm used to

Roots for who?

Best move

Sowing something new

Out of those seeds of pain I grew

Growing a new intricate  transcendental galaxy

Dissolving terrible things to show beauty again 

Galaxy garden overflowing with flowers in full bloom dripping in golden dew drops made of resiliency 

Filled with faith, grace and emotional intelligence

Imagine me

The last one standing 

Pretty ripening of delicious delectable fruits within the galaxy gardens galleries 

Pacing my phoenix wings 

Pieces of my fractured hearts stars are placed in their places once more

Rearranging these scars into constellations 

New fork, New spoon, New life 

Who's this?

The guns gone

I threw it away now the full plate can stay

Within, I alone hold the tools and the Stori never-ending really helps

I feel like I can move

I will no longer be sleepless, listless, hopeless 

I can trust this process

The universe has me right where it wants me

Perfect properly positioning to be prosperous 

Kissing the past goodbye

Thank the ocean of consciousness for my rebirth from the ashes and flames from this

Creator, life got real hard 

I've kept moving

My inner universe and goddess can only elevate

If it don't elevate 

Hesitate so I don't have to regulate your negativity because next time it won't take as easily 

Evils come from many places but once you find self forgiveness alongside love... nothing can be closer to the light inside of the piece of God in you.

Whenever you're up on top but do not remember that you can be down below the ground. The universe will humble you. 

If you see the signs that your observer shows you and you do not listen it will humble you.

Never let anyone wash their hands in your inner well. You have the right and responsibility to take care of the conscious observer. After all it is your soul and only you can save it. We can all fly.

Fruit of damnation that within hold seeds of true exultation